I'm Not Morbid, My Blog Is

It's been awhile since I have written...... That last sentence sounded like a confession to a priest. There I go doing it again, I try to write and it comes out serious and depressing. Recently, I wanted someone to look at my writings on here. Well, that person read them and enjoyed them very much. Then, that person looked at me and asked " Why are you so upset in them?". To which I replied " I'm not". So, I woke up this morning and read over my blogs, that person was right, kind of.

So, I scoured my notebooks for poems and screenplays. All the poems were about loss and suffering, with the exception of a few. I looked at some comedy screenplays I started about a pregnant girl framing a depressed virgin to be the father of her child ( Cheesy, I know). At first it's funny, then it seemed to dig more into the psychosis of these characters. It lost its comedy roots and became a sad drama with strains of comedy. A part of screenplay writing is to escape the shell of reality, to find a world in which even in serious situations there can be over the top humor. I am a funny guy, but when I was reading the screenplay, I read the thoughts of someone who had been hurt by the world, which is completely untrue.

I have had hundreds of people love me throughout my life. I am truly blessed in every definition. So, why would my writings seem this way? All I can conjure up is I try to hard and I should probably let go of some of the seriousness in my work. I imagine a flower and I end up writing about the seed.

In closing, just thought I would let everybody know that I am happy. I didn't have abusive parents, I have only had my heart broken once ( Which is normal ), and I have been loved every minute of my life by someone or something.